Man, I feel like I am on a rollercoaster ride with Paige lately. We have good days, not so good days and then a really great day. Last week on Thursday I think we had possibly the worst day for behavior I have ever seen. She wouldn't do anything I said and then she was hitting me, yelling angrily and saying NO all day. We had lots to do that day so it was very frustrating and I felt like I was literally going to snap in 2. I did snap a few times and that is not how I want to handle things with my kids. I was out of patience that day and seriously wondering how I was going to get some. I found myself consisnently taking a step back to try to do the right thing but knew I was not because I just simply had had enough. We did get to preschool sign up and she was very good there when other kids were not being so good. I felt some hope and I do know that she was just tried or rebellous that day. When I see other kids in public I know that Paige is so good and she is going to have bad days. But man they are hard to take. With 2 girls this I know is just the beginning. I have always said it is "One day at a time" and on those days it will have to be "one minute (or even second) at a time"
Friday we just started a new and Paige was an angel all day. We had just a great day and I went to bed thinking of how proud I am of my girls and how much I love and appreciate them. A total 180 from the night before when I felt beat.
Paige at her age is very demanding and takes a lot of my time and energy and I love most every minute of it. Then there is Addy and she is just so good and happy and patient (most of the time). I really am a believer in things happen for a reason. Addy is such a light in my life. I wonder how I got to be so lucky. Seriously she is always smiling and loves to giggle. Paige can make her giggle really loud. So can I - but it just gets you when Paige does it because it is this really innocent moment when the two girls are giggling at each other. When you look at Addy she just gives you the biggest smiles she can, so big sometimes that her face scrunches all up and her eyes squint closed. There are some many moments with Addy that I just feel so blessed. When you pick her up she comes in for a snuggle on your chest and sometimes she just lingers there because it feels good to snuggle and you can tell she is so comfy and happy to be with you. So many times she takes a moment to focus her attention on you and she gives you this feeling for a moment that you are the most important and you get this feeling of unconditional love, acceptance and simply pure 100% joy. There are many days that go by that I feel like Addy has come into my life for a reason and she is such a light in my life.
I am so fortunate to be surrounded by such great people to support me. People who have been there, are there and can help. Thanks in advance for the next 20 years to help me through :)
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Nikki - that was beautiful. You brought tears to my eyes with your nice words... it really makes me look forward to having another one, and especially to having two girls. You are very blessed with your wonderful family, and we, in turn, are very lucky to have the Lier family in our lives. Don't ever doubt for a second your abilites as a mom - you're doing a fabulous job. We can just look at those beautiful girls, even on the not so good days, and see how great they are.
That is so sweet and wonderful, Nikki. Thank you so much for writing that -- I think each of us share those feelings about our children and it's so cool to read it put into words. You guys are great!!
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