Some new chapters

The Lier family is starting some new chapters. Many of you that I have spoken to know of the changes but there are a few that I have not had a chance to talk to recently, sorry. So I will give you all an update on some changes here. I am starting a new chapter in my life - what I hope will be a fulfilling and rewarding chapter. I think I have been having a pre- midlife crisis or a post baby crisis I am not really sure but some kind of crisis. There are so many things I want to do in my life and I have this terrible tendiacy to want to do it all and usually all at once. I know it is frustrating to the people around me and to me sometimes too. I am really wanting to get into the field of Interior Design, I know there are alot of people in that field but I have given it alot of thought over the last year, since Addy was born and I need some changes. I feel like I have been spinning my wheels, waiting for something to change in my life, for a better time to do some things that I want. I don't want to inconvenience my family. It seems that I have always been looking for acceptance and the approval to do things. And because of that I have not been true to myself or as much as I would like. Well, I am 31 years old and that may seem to young to some and old to others, I feel that it is time I starting getting approval and acceptance from myself instead of looking for it in others. It is time to start embracing me - sure I am trying to do it all but that is who I am. I am asking a lot from Dave and my daughters to support me, to sacrifice some time for me. I just don't want to wake up and feel that there were things that I haven't gotten to. I want to live a fulfilled life and strive for some of the things that I admire in people. I want my daughters to have a good role model and grow up feeling secure in themselves. Even if that means I am not at home with them 24 hours a day. I love my daughters to no end but I really need to find the balance for me to be happy and fulfilled. So I am searching for what that means. It isn't going to come from the snap of a finger or a change in a career but a whole collaboration of things and an ongoing effort to be true to me. I can't promise that what it is going to take to be true to me isn't going to change over time - after all I have a lot of life in front of me - but it is going to start here. I am going to try to give myself the approval and acceptance to do it. Dave, was a little relecutant and deservingly so for me to start a new endeaver. This affects him big time. He has since come on board and has been in my court 100% since. Thank you Dave, your love and support help me through.

So it began last year actually after I had Addy that I was really thinking about things and checked on going back to school for interior design. (It is hard to get a job in the field without either training or experience and in many cases both. Since there are so many people in the field it is competitive.) What was I thinking I had a 2 year old and a newborn? I actually brushed it under the rug and it resurfaced this year. So I was checking into my options and talked to Dave about going back to school. It would be 2 years full time. How would we swing it, financially, emotional, with the kids, etc? It was short notice, school would be starting in a week. So we decided to just go ahead and things would hopefully fall into place. Well, school was full - I could enroll for 2007 if I wanted. There was a waiting list but they said it was to long to get on. I kept checking the classes online and they were not full a week after school started- so I called back and said there is a spot open. The women on the other line said come on down today and we will get you started the spot is yours if you want it. I was like, whoops Dave isn't going to like this. I think he was relieved when it was full originally. So I tell the lady - well I haven't filled out any paperwork and her reply, Oh you're not on the waiting list. Me - No because you all wouldn't put me on it last week. Her- well if you were on it - anywhere on it I could have gotten you in but since you're not I will have to give it to someone else. After much frustration - that was that. In the meantime Dave heard a commercial on a radio station that we listen to about a small family owned furntiture store that was looking for a designer. They were not requiring a degree or even much experience just a strong desire and a flare for design. Ah ha - so I called them, hit it off with the owner over the phone. Met with her a week or so later and she offered me the job on the spot. She had some other interviews lined up but she told me as far as she was concerned the job was mine if I wanted it and she would cancel all her other interviews. Well, of course I wanted it. This was an opportunity to get a start somewhere, a place to get my feet wet in design, see if I liked it, where I would want to go with it and if school is still an option. The weird thing is that she told me the commercial only aired 2 times on the radio and Dave was listening - was it meant to be? So I am now a designer at Furniture Manor in Osseo. It is right by Fleet Farm off 81 and 169. I am a part- time furniture sales person and am realizing there is a lot to learn. Furnitiure Manor sells about 20-30 different lines of furniture and they all offer something different. Everyone there has been really great and many of the people there have their own design business on the side. ( I am making connections already) The fun part of the job is that we get to go out to people's house's and help them with room lay out, etc. The owner has no problem with us helping the customers with other design projects for a fee also.(Carpet, flooring, paint, accecories,etc) So I think I am going to learn a lot here and I am glad to have a chance to. School may still be an option for me - we are all adjusting to this change first. I am still working at Workman Financial on Mon and Weds.. working at furniture manor one night a week M-Th (not a set day yet, it will be) then Fridays and a rotating weekend schedule. So it is kinda like I have a full time job it is just not everyday and it is at 2 different places. Life is always an adventure and I am loving it.

So as a result the girls have had to start a new daycare. (long story and this is already long enough) They will be going to Daycare on Wed and Fri and we found what we think will be a great option. Her name is Anita, she has been doing daycare for 37 years, her daughter Becky has been doing it with her for 15 years. It is 2 blocks from our house and there are boys and girls Paige and Addy's age. It is an adjustment but I think it will be a good change, I hope.

Sorry it has taken me so long to write this story but I wasn't sure what I was going to say and I needed some time to write it, it is rather long, sorry. So now you know what is going on and please think of me if you need help with your home, my advice comes cheap, free.